I have been a church goer for the better part of my life.  It started with attending a Catholic nursery school and continued through high school.  I attended mass during the week and on the weekends either attended Catholic mass or Baptist worship service.  In college I joined the gospel choir and attended services on Sunday at a Baptist church not far from my university.   A year or so after graduating I joined a Baptist church and became an active member.   In 2000 I got baptized, full body immersion in the baptismal pool.  I’ve attended bible study and participated in several study groups, I think/thought I was doing the right thing.

Yet with all my past and current involvement, I still don’t seem to have the same fire that I see in others during Sunday services or other church related events.  I see people crying in the spirit and / or talking in tongues, but none of that for me.  I see people in church that walk with crown of entitlement on their head when in church, I don’t feel it.  Am I doing something wrong?  I see people who get excited about reading God’s word, I enjoy a good scripture but I have never been over the moon about reading the Word.  I would think after being immersed in holy water I would be the model church goer but it has been years, still no tongue talking for me.

I’ve heard of church goers that believe strongly in women not wearing pants to church or wearing sleeveless tops are inappropriate.  The worse church attire sin of them all is to wear jeans to church, really??  I am guilty on all 3 accounts and to top it off, I have 2 tattoos, I guess these things are what make my church walk wrong?

I am a Christian under construction, in action and spirit I try to live a life that I believe aligns with Jesus’s teachings but when it comes to the church walk I just don’t have it.  I will be under construction until the day I die, I don’t think I will ever be the polished and complete model church goer… maybe that is what is wrong with my church walk?

Perhaps I am blurring the lines of being a church goer with being a Christian?